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I"M A GIRL!!! by Taniuska Barbosa on 3/10/2010

Most of you probably already know this or if you don't may not be too surprised to hear that I am kind of an awkward girl.

When people call me "cute" and "little," I think in my head, (and sometimes say out loud), no way I am "ferocious" and a "beast." My favorite nickname was my sign name, Boss. But ever since I started the race my team has taken to calling me diva! DIVA! Can you believe that??!!

As soon as it started, I asked for an explanation. I was a bit insulted to be honest. All these years of trying to be tough, and trying to be self- sufficient melted away in a moment. It was disheartening.

It took me a couple of months to process all this and come to terms with at least a piece of who I am. Last week at debrief we got to just speak life over ourselves. This never seems to get old. In fact, the more we do this the more I feel it should be a daily thing, but that's another blog. It was at one of these sessions, with my 60 closest friends, that I realized how weak being a female made me feel and how ridiculous that was.

When I was praying to God I got this picture of myself looking really tough and powerful. And though to everyone around me I just looked like I was yelling and standing tall, making a huge scene, in my head I just felt myself curled around God's feet.

This immediately reminded me of the woman spoken about in Luke 7.

This woman did something so girly. She threw herself at Jesus feet and poured perfume all over him and then she wiped it off with her own hair.. wow! And on top of this she did it in from of a group of important men.

Being that vulnerable has never appealed to me, I hate admitting weakness. I don't mind falling before God but in front of everybody, what would they think/say?

If you read the rest of the verses though you will see that she didn't have to defend herself. Jesus did it for her. He defended her and forgave her sins!

Once again I am reminded of when Christ says in 2 Corinthians 12:9

"My grace is all you need, my powers works best in your weakness."

So yeah, even writing this I feel like I've written about this before about being weak and God being best known and seen in that. But I guess this is what God wants me thinking about this year, acknowledging I can do nothing and am nothing without him.

Once again God, you win. Help me to really learn this lesson once and for all.

I am a girl and being a girl is not weak! {insert womanly roar here}

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